make me

After months of beating myself up about not be smart enough to be in grad school, I've decided to make the conscious effort not to be so hard on myself. I'm also going to stop beating myself up over my non-productive days. Like today, when instead of studying I went to the farmers market then made a big thing of 7-layer dip and ate the whole thing. I also bought curtains from ikea and took a bath. And played on facebook instead of going to a party.

BUT. It was what needed to be done. I had a long convo with my arabic teacher on friday after she gave our tests back. I did not-too-hot, but she was nice enough to sit down with me to give me tips and let me re-do my essay section. Not to mention that during our conference she breast-fed her 6 month old infant, so I saw her boobs and nipples, which pretty much means she can't fail me now. Just saying.

So I've been feeling swamped by school and today Amy U. (who's in her 3rd year and her 2nd m.a.) was finally like look, you're a first year, you have plenty of time to freak out later right now you're totally fine. And my mom pretty much said the same thing, like, you're too young to be freaked out like this. Which was nice to hear and made me feel silly so I'm going to stop stressing the f out and just do my best...so I guess tomorrow I can go back to being semi-productive instead of stuffing my face and watching DVR. Speaking of,

my current obsessions:

• Gauntlet III - Crazy Brooke is a lesbian now! But not a real one; she's just horny and is sick of men. The whole cast is super slutty. And the couples are total drama (melinda and danny, diem and ct). Coral is such a bitch!
• Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew - Jeff Conaway should be dead already. Period. But a hickey from Kenickie is still better than a Hallmark card. RIP, dude.
• Project Runway - What is up with Jillian and those coats she keeps making? And Chris is my new fave to win (don't call it a comeback). He and Christian should team up after the show and do a clothing line
• Rock of Love II - that one girl Daisy looks like a muppet
• My Fair Brady Maybe Baby - Adrienne Curry's white trash factor is through the roof this year. Srsly.