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Thank you for all the well-wishes and kind words this week! It means a lot, especially being so far away from home right now. My co-workers really came through this week, too. Even though my grandpa just died yesterday, when I came in to work this morning, everyone in my office signed a sympathy card for me (not to mention that I've only known them all for about a month). They were also really supportive of me taking a few days off to recover.

So, after much much MUCH discussion and deliberation with my parents, I have (we have) decided the best thing is for me to not try and get home for the services. There are a lot of factors involved, but the main item is that it would have meant extra work for my parents, who are dealing with enough right now. It's not that they wouldn't do anything for me, but I feel like it would be better for me to be one less person to worry about. It would be nice to be there, but to be completely honest, I don't think it wouldn't have been possible this week without a miracle. Besides, my dad stresses out when I fly, and not to mention that I would have to borrow money from them to get there, and...I sort of freak out when I fly, too, and the whole thing was giving us all extra pressure. It probably sounds weird to other people, but it feel like this is probably best for our family right now.

So I've decided to stay in Seattle, which I am actually really fine with. I plan on still taking a few days off work since it's been hard to focus since yesterday on anything, and feeling stressed and close to tears isn't great when I have to help other people all day. Seth is doing a great job of distracting me and work through it. I'm so glad he's here.

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In other news, it's that horrible time of year when our apartment gets invaded with spiders. They sneak in at the end of summer when it starts to get cool outside and our windows are still open. They love the kitchen and the corners in the bedroom. But for some reason this year they have also shown up in the bathtub (no no no no no no) and on the blinds (where one was wrapped up in this bizarre cocoon creation. Um? I don't think so. I smashed that one extra hard). They probably aren't poisonous because they aren't aggressive (though I'm too scared to look it up for sure), but they are u-g-l-y, black with looooong spidery legs. Now I'm really ready for fall to get here. That, plus I had my first pumpkin spice latte of the year today. Yes.