Gotta be honest. I think I'm sort of over Angelina Jolie, and her baby-snatching, aging gracefully, not marrying Brad Pitt because she doesn't feel like it self. She said she's going to slow down making movies, possibly stop altogether because she wants to focus on her family, which sounds reasonable to me since they have like 9 kids now, and they're all gonna be crazy Hollywood messed up if she lets them raise themselves. I'm sort of ready for a new, crazy, hot, young Angelina (and NOT Megan Fox), and this Angelina can retire already and do those emotional movies and keep saving the world. Brad, however, is going to be 17 years old forever.

Seth is going to Austin for the weekend, and since Amy deserted me for D.C., I'm sort of don't know what I'm going to do with myself. Honestly, the quiet will be good, and I can read in bed all day, watch movies, and eat Indian food all weekend. The apartment could use a deep clean, too.

I'm hitting my mid-quarter slump. It always happens. The new-ness of my classes starts to wear off, and the hard work starts to kick in and I just.....want to shut her down. Yesterday I skipped class because Amy called and I spent two hours talking to her outside in the gorgeous fall weather instead of going to lecture. Today I'm sort of skipping work because I convinced myself that since I stayed super late on Tuesday for the graduate fair (when I was supposed to be off) that it somehow works out. I am so fucking spoiled. Basically, this is why my GPA is not so stellar, and why I'm probably never going to graduate. But I vow to get a lot done this weekend, and I think it's gonna happen. srsly.

I also had a two hour phone conversation last night with mom. She's dealing with tough stuff at work (like usual) and it's so weird because I feel like I'm dealing with a lot of the same things. Like, she's the only manager at her level (or higher) in her company who's a woman, and she's in La while everyone else is up north, and it makes her feel like an outsider in a lot of ways (even though she's been there a long time). Which is pretty much how I've felt here since I've started grad school. Like, I'm only one of two girls in my year in my program, and Meghan (the other girl) and I are NOTHING alike, academically. [Ditto for the other girls (and dudes) in my program.] And...I'm from the south but I'm not this "southern belle" type, like people seem to expect, like this demure, conservative slow-talker. Nor am I this uber "feminist" liberal seattle-type grad student. I really have no idea how I fit in. It's made it tough to stay on track (obviously). My mom's the same way -- she takes work super seriously but she's not a ball buster, but she's not a pushover. Her location does absolutely awesome (they send her to other locations that are struggling to get hem back on track), employees LOVE her... I think her boss is just a jerk. The difference is that she's totally devoted to her company, and I'm just lazy. Ha ha. Anyway it was good to talk to her because sometimes I forget how much alike we are, and how she is the person who always always always gets me, even when I feel like no one else does.

All the trees are changing now and it's gorgeous outside. There's also snow on the mountains so sometime soon hopefully we'll drive up and look at the colors and autumness. Autumn is awesome!