update

Hey ya.
I'm still alive, with varying degrees of daily anxiety attacks.

My master's exam is closer than ever, and seriously I have nothing else going on in my life so that's what this update is about.

Can I just say that this process has been incredibly complicated? I don't know if it's my school...or my program...or my major...but I have the feeling that it's all of the above combining forces to create this vortex of confusion. Because literally, no one really know how this process is "supposed" to work, and with like 20 people graduating this quarter, we all have *literally* completely different processes or doing semi-similar things. So bizarre. And if I weren't so freaked out about finishing everything, I would complain about it. And since we're all so engrossed in our own projects, it sort of makes sense that no one is like "Hey, wait, none of these are the same."

But, I finished all three of my exam bibliographies and their abstracts and submitted them to all my committee members so that they can write my exam questions. I've been working on these since the first week of the quarter, which sort of explains why the last four (five? six?) weeks have been a blur. My written exam is next week, and I pick up my questions and have a week to prepare answers and I turn those in the next week. Then my committee has a week to read them, and the following week I have an oral exam where they ask me about my answers, and my exam papers.

That's right, I also have exam papers. Which I've supposed to have already completed by the time I do my written exam, which I've just finished preparing for (that's the bibliographies. Which are not the same as my paper bibliographies.). Anyway, if my written exam is next week, my papers need to be in with enough time for them to read and consider before they write my questions.

So, my papers are due Monday. Otherwise, I have to reschedule everything.

Which is fine. Perfectly do-a-ble. If I do them.

I have two separate papers from other classes that are suitable (no easy task for me), and both have copious amounts of notes and revision suggestions. I've been re-reading them and they are awful. Which is good, because that means I know how to fix them. I also have about 50 library books on hand, just in case I need to go back and re-do major sections (which I will).

I also have work, Spanish, and two evening lectures this week. And everyone else I know at different schools is FINISHING this week. So looking at facebook is just depressing, so I'm avoiding it, which is probably better anyway.

Anyhoo, the point is that I'm pretty much in the thick of it, but at least I'm sort of on track and I sort of have a plan to finish. Maybe. We'll see. I know this is boring. I just want my life back.